Emellebe

Been feeling a little sad lately.
So the other day I ran into my ex-"fiance"( im putting the " in because I doubt we were really ever going to get married, I was only 15 when I met him) at Olive Garden with my mother. He was there with his wife Mallory and what seemed to be his new born Son. It was very strange, brought back a lot of horrible memories and sadly I let them get to me.
I feel bad for this girl, Mallory. I can't imagine how many time's he might have beaten her or cheated on her. I know at least once... with me.
I am very happy to be Married to someone who treats me with respect. Someone I enjoy to be around, someone who doesn't physically hurt me.
I didn't like seeing him.
Anyway, I really wish I liked myself a little more. Had more confidence, maybe, or even just thought I was pretty again. I have a personal trainer now, so I hopefully am on my way to shedding fifteen or so pounds, because I feel fat, and I feel ugly. It's hard, I have never had to worry about my weight ever in my LIFE and now all of a sudden I am crying over stretch marks and rolls that didn't use to be there.
Anyway, I didn't mean for this post to be a Pitiful one, but sometimes I just need to get it out.