I really really really want to write a book. I feel so inspired. I want to start, and give myself a deadline.. I just feel like no one would want to read it, or what would I even write about? I don't know... hopefully I will soon figure it out.

Holy God the roads are bad right now. I decided for some unknown reason I wanted to take I-15 home from work this morning.. Um, what?
Horrible, I was sliding all over the place.. but I must be a good driver because I am writing this and I am alive still.
My Dad's birthday is coming up soon.... we don't talk. I'm not quite sure what to do. I miss him, a lot.

Anyway.. I am soooo tired, and it is snowy, and there isn't much to do, so I might let myself have a nap, if I can promise to get up before four. :-/

I need to clean. D: boooooooo

Meet Laura Jade.



Just one of my favorite photographers.

Christmas list 09'

This is my Christmas WISH list. For those of you I send this link to, please do not write me harsh emails. Thank you.

♡= What I want the most
☼= What I need the most

Link's Below.


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♡6.

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♡8.


☼♡1.iMac 27"
♡2.iPhone 3G S 32GB
3.Barefoot In France Cookbook
☼4.Cannon EF 55mm Macro Lense
♡5.Cannon EOS 5D
♡6. 2010 Chuck Calendar
7. Seeds & Petals Bag
♡8.PS3

AHH!

Tonight I met my most favorite woman ever, don't worry, I made a complete fool of myself, BUT I did go! That is a true accomplishment.. I did have a few panic attacks before meeting her, but it was soooo worth it.





Im getting my hair done this weekend, payday tomorrow, YAY!


Enjoy your:




Whilst FINALLY reading your Cannon Xti's instructions manual after owning for a year.

I am so ready to blow my brains out right now.
People can be so damn annoying it is crazy.

I went to the doctors today, I have been having some serious problems lately, and it is freaking me out.
Yesterday I kept blacking out, and the feeling really nauseas.. also, sometimes it will feel like I forgot to breathe.

Anyway, my doctor says my Anxiety is just bad. She did an EKG and my test results are normal. She also did some stuff that had to do with my blood pressure and that was normal too.
I just want to feel better. I am tired of being sick and tired. It is aweful.

I can't help but feel sorry for myself.. my mind keeps asking me what happened.