21

I am 21 today. It is 2:11 am and I am still awake from the previous night. I am thinking of what I am going to do tomorrow. I am going to "force" some Paperwhites, (put the bulbs in a glass vase, fill with water, and watch them grow) because I love fresh flowers around the house but I always feel bad picking them. David is asleep right now, I love him so much. I love watching him sleep. He recently cut his long hair and although I miss it, he looks very handsome because I can see his beautiful face better without the mess of hair surrounding it, even though he still hasn't shave his huge and bushy and unsightly chops.. one step at a time I guess.
I really need to get back on my diet, and start eating at home. I also need to be done worrying about my cervix and go back and see Joss ( my gym trainer) I need to work out. I always feel better about my body when I work out. I feel fat and ugly, yet I feel skinny and beautiful, because that is how David sees me, and that really is all that matters.
In turning twenty one I am thankful for the things that have happened in my life so far, I still can't believe I have grown up, I didn't ever think I would live past 13.
I am thankful that I met David that fateful day in October, at Barnes and Noble.
I am thankful I got to marry David, and forever spend the rest of my life with someone who makes me feel more incredible each day, someone who inspires me, and someone who makes me want to be a better person.
I am thankful that the amazing person I married also happens to be the sexiest human alive.
I am thankful to have such loving parents, and two Dad's that mean the world to me, and even though we may fight, in the end they make me feel more loved then I think any child ever feels with their parent.
I am thankful I have such a supporting mother, who even though I struggled through school, amoung other things, she has always supported me and sometimes even my rediculous descisions.
I love that I have three wonderful dogs, who shed like crazy, but who are the most tender-hearted creatures in this world.
I am thankful to have friends I can trust, and who care about me as much as I care about them.
I am thankful I am finally going to get my highschool Diploma, and believe in myself enough to even try.

That is all. I am 21.
I am older,
wiser,
smarter,
happier.






Goodnight

<3 emellebe